After daddy helped me proof read my post, he could tell that I wasn’t in the best of places. I had,had time to actually think about how I was feeling and reflect on it. Leaving me with a pained look on my face and an ache in my stomach.
The things that ran through my mind are as such…
I had been moody all day thinking about the changes in our lives. I love being daddies property. For him to play with, fondle, touch and do with as he wishes.. Yet this morning when he went for his inspection of my shave job and went a little further then I was wanting I got upset. I didn’t feel like being touched that way and it had left me feeling a little dirty. I know that this isn’t the feeling that daddy was going for and he profusely apologizes for making me feel in such a way but that didn’t make the grumps go away.
I believe that we are at an adjusting point in our relationship where we are learning that yes I am his to have a hold but it is also a sign of respect to know when it is an inspection and when it is ‘ok to let those slippery fingers slide inside.
Throughout the day not a whole lot fixed my mood. Daddy made me my favourite “sicky meal” Krappy dinner and dogs. [gluten free pasta with macaroni and cheese sauce, and cheese sausages.. Yes we are gluten free]. This didn’t make me feel a whole lot better. Then I thought I wanted some ice cream.. chocolate with peanut butter only to find out that we couldn’t make it because all the chocolate ice cream had freezer burn’t.
I threw a temper tantrum. Kicking my feet, crying, being grumpy. After a while daddy was able to calm me down and talk me into walking to the corner store with him to get some ice cream. He got the best ice cream that there was at the store. Ben and Jerry’s Peanut Butter Half Baked. We went for a small walk with the dog while retrieving the ice cream.
I had even started to feel better. Better enough that I even helped daddy take come of the garbage out to the curb, did up a few dishes and actually asked if we could sit downstairs on the couch together instead of me crawling back into my hole of a bed.
Daddy happily agreed
Ok baby you sit down on the couch and find something for us to watch or listen to while I get your yummy ice cream. Pj’s first though please.
Off I raced as quick as lightning to get the pj’s on, bring Lily down with me and get some yummy ice cream. Once the ice cream was all gone daddy ran us a bath. Daddy says baths always calm me down and wrap me in a warm fuzzy blanket.
Then we crawled into bed together discussed the blog and agreed that we will have to come up with a way to work on both of our needs and he read me a very cute story until I fell asleep in his arms.